I should probably update. What do you want to know? I'm in a foul mood. I don't want to. I've been in a slump for the past few weeks. You can tell. I haven't typed up a public entry in quite a while. Before Halloween. I don't even want to talk about it. I'm just lonely. Only, I will end up even lonelier. Going away to graduate school in a little over three semesters. I have been making a list of possible schools. I should be enjoying my time here with everyone, but you know what - I care so much about hanging out that I almost feel numb to the prospect; I wish I didn't care. I just want to cry... It's not that I mind going away. I want to be in a new environment. I don't care if I am so far away. I just want to enjoy my moments now, but I can't. Or at least, no one wants to do the same with me. Except sometimes with Adrian. And even with Adrian, I feel like our relationship feels a bit empty and lonely. I haven't seen him. He wants to hang out, but we both have busy schedules. Oh, fuck this. Just leave me alone.
On with the social life, I really haven't been doing much overall. I just talk with Adrian majority of the time, or I call up Frank or talk to him on AIM. I wish I could devote more time to my friends, but then, I look around my room and notice I should devote my time to many a-things. My room is such a wreck. I need to clean that and do some chores around the house. Yet, what am I doing? Listening to Rise Against, watching anime (Shakugan no Shana S and Ghost Hound), and completing homework online. I read a bit of The Lost Symbol, too.
Hmm, well, the biggest event this weekend was probably Germaine and Sammich's Fall Party! It was a blast! I stayed the night at Adrian's the night before that way he was guaranteed to be up for it. xD
We had a pretty large group! <3
My gosh, Germaine and Sammich put so much time, effort, and money in this party. The party was held from 4PM - 8PM, but a few of us stayed around till 12AM (myself included). I mean, they bought boxes of Ghiradelli chocolate, bowls of Starburst and Skittles, glow sticks, 100 pieces of chicken, fries, and boss sauce from Raising Cane's, a pinata, decorations, etc. It was easily over $150. Probably more! Shoot, the Raising Cane's deal itself was over $100. They really love their friends.
It was a lot of fun! :D
I subbed in for Adrian to play basketball against Tall Kyle (he's about 6'6 while I'm around 5'7 1/2) and this one other kid. That was pretty fun. I had to stop one time to tie my shoe. Kyle just sat down on the ground. Adrian took a picture of that. I was just so damn devoted to the idea of scoring at least once against Kyle, and I did after many feeble and pathetic attempts.
After that, it was football as the boys versus the girls. Kyle, the meanie, tackled this poor girl. He swears she ran into him, but I have evidence by my camera! It's supposed to be two hand touch! We hung around after that, ate, hula-hooped, played around on the jungle-gym... Let's talk about that! So, it all started with one picture of Adrian. He went down the slide, and I surprised him by taking his picture. Then, everyone started lining up to have their picture taken down the slide! It was so funny. xP
Good times! Oh, and the pinata was great. It got knocked down from the tree it was tied in earlier by Trevor and one of Germaine and Sammich's friend. Then, Adrian decided to Falcon Punch it up the butt. The poor thing was fisted to Adrian's elbow. That kid was in there deep! Then, Kyle decided to go for the kill and karate-chopped it. The look on Trevor's face, as he was the one holding the pinata for Kyle to chop, was priceless! And yes, I have pictures!
It was loads of fun. The group who hung back - Germaine, Adrian, Kyle, Nando, Trevor, and I - began to take more pictures and just having fun with it! I want to print them out. :D
Boy - was this fun! :D
I should put a scrapbook together for those two girls to repay them. :) Or a card. Just somefin!
Though, the only bummer of the night was Jon. Notice who is not in the pictures? He didn't even show up for the party. Oh, sure, he had the excuse that he was going to his bowling tournament, but that didn't start till 5PM. Angel and Tony, Germaine's coworkers, showed up for a little bit, and they had work to go to. Jon was done with his event around 8 or 9PM, and we were still hanging around the park. Instead of stopping by, he decided to "go to bed", yet he still continued to text Germaine until 2AM. How annoying.
It's like she devoted so much to this event (along with Sammich) and he didn't even have the decency to stop by! What a jerk. I don't know why she doesn't just dump him. I mean, sure, whatever, make the excuse that he makes you happy, but honestly, in the long run, how are you going to feel? Sure, you love him, but it takes more than that. He's not good for her. He really needs to work on himself before he considers dating. He has pushed everyone away; he's like a stranger to us now.
This girl needs to learn to be more assertive and strong-willed. I know she was irritated with him that day (or at least, she was irritated at something or another). For example, she kept making little comments here and there. I wanted to comfort her, but at the same time, I felt like she was angry at me! Misdirected perhaps? I don't remember saying or doing anything offensive, but maybe I did. I don't really want to talk to her about it, and I doubt she'll stumble upon this entry. I felt really hurt about it that night.
After the park, we went back to her house for a couple hours. We were there from about 12AM/1AM to 3AM (and I had work in the morning at 9AM) just joking around, and I was falling asleep on Adrian's lap. Germaine was really cold. I mentioned I was cold too, that we could share a blanket. Instead, she just gave me the blanket and said a little snappishly that I could have it. She just dropped it on me and laid back down with her phone. She was texting Jon at the time. Maybe something was said then? I was just kinda upset about it and stayed quiet. I wanted to cry in all actuality. I fell asleep and woke up to Germaine telling me to get the fuck out of her house. And yes, in those words. :(
You know, I don't think I'll ever have a best friend who's a girl. It just won't happen. Germaine has Sammich. Etianne is in another state. Markita has Cora. And... I just don't have anyone. :( At least, not a girl. I have Frank and Adrian, but I just want a girl who can relate with me, someone I can go shopping with, someone I can talk to, someone who can understand me, someone who listens... you know. I just always feel empty about this topic.
Anyway, that night was really fun. Even after leaving Germaine's house with the guys joking about cereal for some reason unknown to me and going to sleep at 3AM only to wake up in 5 hours. *sigh* I did enjoy it; I just wish it could've ended better...
This has been a long week of school so far. It's not over either. Majority of of the workload is not bad.
In fact, I aced my Counseling midterm on Sunday, finished the online posts (100%), quiz (another 100%), and some exercises. I ended up getting a mid-range A on my Personality writing assignment. I aced the quiz in that class on Tuesday, and I'm even helping to tutor a student in the class. I've been invited into an honor society. They wrote in their letter that I am in the top 15% of my class!
I'm not feeling too hot about my test in Anthropology this last Monday. I did okay. I do not like okay, but that is just not my field; it's just an elective I have to take to satisfy my Psychology requirements, but I'll be damned if I let that ruin my 3.88 GPA!
Aside from these achievements, I was running around all day. Seriously. First, I had an appointment with my department's advising center. This only took 10 minutes, but waking up, getting ready, rushing out the door, finding a parking spot, and racing to the building on campus took a lot longer! I even had to head back home after my class to eat and take a shower before work, where I am now.
Before I arrived to class, however, I was running around campus for some answers about my classes (and findiing out how much UNLV jackets are), so I can have some sort of idea as to what classes I am taking in the spring. I think I have it down, but who knows what my final schedule is going to look like. It is very possible that it might change. I am thinking about going for 15 credits, but since I am aiming for a research assistant position in the spring, this will add on 1 - 6 credits, depending on the workload. Wowza...
This leads to my next issue: confidence about being accepted as a research assistant. I have received three emails back about being a research assistant. So, three professors are willing to take a look at me, but that does not guarantee the position. *sigh* I know I'm good at my work; I just need to be given a chance...
Anyway, this week is not over. I need to go home after work, write a post for an online course, and study for my Research Methods test that is tomorrow. I really want to ace that too! ;] I have been on a roll. I know I can do it. My confidence does not lack here!
Then, my meeting for Psi Chi is tomorrow (after my student tutoring, perhaps?), and I'm helping that meeting will help narrow down what I'm looking for in graduate school. Meaning, whether or not I pursue the PsyD now or later...
I should probably update about my social life in the next post. This is just dedicated to school. That's pretty much where my life is right now - focusing on school. I am a very busy gal. </3
The last couple of days, I've been watching movies. Shoot, I watched The Proposal with Adrian this week. That was hilarious. I love when Sandra Bullock 'gets low' (haha! puns xD) in the forest. So great!! "To the windows, to the walls, till the sweat drips down my balls." Oh~ and the scene with the eagle taking away the cutest white puppy in the whole world. :3 Adrian liked the line, "She's subtle, like a gun."
It was pretty good. Maybe a buy.
After that, I stayed up till 2:30AM on a school night to watch three episodes of Gurren Lagann and a half episode in the second season of Boy Meets World, one of my favorite series. Fell asleep during that.
Yesterday, I stayed up and watched Armageddon. Great movie! I was crying, fo sho. I just couldn't turn away from the movie. I kept telling myself, "I should probably get to bed. I have work in the morning. I'm going to be hurting if I don't," but I could not leave my couch and the television. Haha, so I fell asleep on the couch, and I was utterly exhausted when I woke up.
Other than that, I just finished watching Bride Wars.That was cute. Uh! The mean things they did to each other. Shoot, and I called the match-making with - SPOILER - Emma and Liv's brother. Totally called it.
Her [ex-]fiance was too controlling. He wanted a docile, trained puppy to just obey him, keep her feelings in check, and not be so "wild". Whatever. Emma just kept letting herself be treated like doormat. At least she stood up for herself a couple times. Oh my gosh! Her coworker teacher was a piece of work! She's all the favors for her?! Ridiculous. She was so much fun to laugh at though. xP
My favorite line in the movie has to be -- "International Butter? You ate butter on a stick? From different countries?"
It was cute. I was in a movie-watching mood when I got back from working out with Markita at the gym on campus. After an eight hour shift, I worked out with Markita. I ended up completing 13 miles on the bike machine. That totaled to over 450 calories! I earned that Buffalo Chicken sandwich from Subway after the workout.
I love Markita as we were sitting down eating. Let me explain:
I said, "Wow, this is pretty spicy." Markita said, "Wow, this IS spicy. I wonder why." I said, "Markita, it's BUFFALO chicken!"
Yes, I proceeded to lawl. xD It was just too funny. I probably made her feel a little embarrassed. She said right afterwards, "I should learn to think sometimes." I couldn't help laughing though. It was pretty silly. I really wanted my camera then. The one Adrian bought me. The Sony camcorder. :3
Speaking of Adrian, I was going to hang out with him, but he was hanging out with some Smash friends. So, I just went home to watch that movie. I'm in the mood to keep watching movies, but I don't really have anything to watch. I do have to watch the movie, "Gattaca" with Uma Thurman for class, but I'm not in the mood for that. ;_; Hmmm, whatever. I guess I'll find something. :)
Adrian's been wanting to hang out lately, but - ready for the reasons and excuses? - I have been working, both at my job and homework, and going to school. Adrian, on the other hand, has been busy looking for a job, filling out applications, and falling asleep early. We both have been busy.
Except on my end at night. While he sleeps (and wakes up super early in the morning), I will stay up till super early in the morning, fall asleep while in the middle of "projects", and have to wake up in a few hours to go to school. What do I spend my time doing? Strolling the interwebs.
I have seen the first two episodes of Kobato. It's really cute. I think I will stick with it for a while. I do well with keeping on a schedule with anime. If an episode is released weekly, I find that I will tend to stick with the series. I did so with Haruhi, and am currently keeping up with Umineko and Kobato. Hopefully this lasts.
Other than this, I had a craving for Asian food the other day. I made stir-fried ramen to satisfy the craving in the moment, but later on, I went to the store to buy some gyoza wrappers - Walmart only had wonton wrappers, same thing - and made up around 50 pieces of gyoza.
Oh~ I have been eating it all week; they turned out delicious. I still have some beef and cabbage mix left, so maybe I could make something else later. More stir-fried ramen?
Anyway, I've just uploading delayed videos on youtube, like videos from the birthday road trip to AZ in July, videos from bowling with the family at the end of August, and videos from a couple weeks ago when I went o 7/11 for Domo-kun slurpee cups and a straw. :)
I'll probably spend the rest of tonight doing working on videos and watching the recently released episode of Umineko. Tomorrow, I am working out with Markita and hanging out with Adrian. Should be fun! :D
Name: Heather
